Wednesday, 06 May 2009

• i don't wanna be what you want me to be

  ...let's face it i do. I'm a people pleaser. It's not something that I'm proud of all the time, but it's who i am. It can definitely be a negative thing.

  You know what I hate? when my guy friends tell me that my best friend is hot. That just gets under my skin. I get that so many times, and it makes me feel so self-conscious. Someone just told me that like 20 minutes ago and I'm still sitting here sulking. Life has a funny way of making you humble. I had been getting so many compliments on how pretty, cute I was. And then this comment gets thrown at me. Now all of a sudden I feel fat, ugly,...nerdy. It sucks. I know that one day I'll look better. I'll be able to wear nicer clothes that I'll look more appealing in. I'll shed these glasses and get some contacts. I'll get a regular hair stylist that will keep my hair looking on point. Ugh, i can't wait til prom next year when i can doll up. It's not fair. I'm just the girl with the beautiful personality..

  I seriously need to get over myself. I sound so shallow right now. So superficial. I need to be comfortable in the skin that I'm in and realize that beauty fades.

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